Words for those who truly touch my heart...

Dear Loved ones…

How are all of you?

Recently been getting requests to update the blog. It’s also been awhile since I did that, or any of my clique members did it. Never thought this blog will be in demand. If we have a counter, we could have 10k hits per day!

So guys, please also update this blog again!

Anyway, as many of you know, my whole summer holiday I have been working at YMCA as an intern. Many of you asked, y did I do choose this internship? Pay low, work not useful to you in the future. Y?

Let me give you the reasons…

1. The main reason was that this summer, I wanted an overseas internship or a slack one. So as I did not get the former, I chose the latter.

2. It is also because my previous internship was really stressful; I wanted a different kind of internship.

3. As my main event that I am doing in YMCA is with regards to entrepreneurship and I always wanted to do my own business, I really hope to have new insights into this part of the world.

4. I also wanted to do some community service in overall. As many of you knew, the Talen of the past, I was so not community active. Thus, I felt it is time that I give back to the society.

Eventually, I have been working at YMCA since 23 April 2007 and I really think I have change a lot.

In the past, I am a slacker. A true slacker. I was inactive in CCA, community service and my life is just slack and studies and sometimes… girls….

But now, I really feel I have change some ways or another. For the better, for the worst, it is up to u to see it and reflect back to me.

Firstly, I feel I have change my perspective on Christianity. After my breakup, I really have a bad view about Christianity. But right now, I just believe in it, just as I believe in Buddhism, Taoism and Catholic. Right now, I actually have this theory. Maybe there is really just this 1 god, who came down in different forms to pass down the right messages to people. Eventually, like what some of my colleagues said, it is not god who is wrong, is the people who misinterpreted their words make it so wrong.

Secondly, I feel I have become more active. You know I actually sort of become a volunteer leader here at YMCA. (Dun shakes yr head now)!!! I joined a committee for one of their events. I also have a CCA (Uni-Y). And I even join their activities, like Y camp, Y nature walk. Life seems meaningful again despite being busy at times. Right now, I truly understand people who have the urge to help the world, how they feel.

Thirdly, I have also believed in love again. Let me summaries, I never believe I could fall in love again. And I did. Even when this relationship did not turn out what I wanted, I am just as happy we are friends now.

Fourthly, I have also met a lot of great people who have passed me great wisdom. The main events will be my colleagues and people from the Y Camp. You all taught me a lot of stuff I did not know. Thank you!

I must also specially thank this new friend I met at the friend who has always supported me all the way. Regardless of what happens in the future, hopes our friendship holds. I guess U know who u r, “Shameless 1”!

Although this is not all that I feel now, but like what one of my friend said, “You are always having trouble explaining yourself.” Hopefully, guys u understand and feel that I really appreciate everything that has happen this whole summer.

For my clique members, I guess I have not been spending quality time with you guys. Hope you understand. During this summer, I guess one of the highlights I had with you guys is the Tioman trip and as usual the regular soccer session. Thanks guys!

That is all the appreciating words I have to say. For now.

Trivia for all those that are reading…

Just a recently situation I came up;

This very day, I am eating with another 4 colleagues. (2 girls, 3 guys including me).

Then one of the girls was unable to open her can of drink and she almost broke her nicely painted nail.

The 3 guys have 3 different reactions.

1. Guy A laugh and joke about the incident.
2. Guy B ask her if she needs help.
3. Guy C went straight to open the can for her.

For u guys, u can guess which one was me? And state and reflect on what kind of guy u r?
For the girls, you can give yr comments as to which guy U like. These comments will become important feedbacks for the largely populated singles in my cliques.

That’s all!

Have Fun!

Blackburn aka Talen

MENDI TREATS DING TAI FUNG!!

EVIDENCE!!

And MOs Burger too! i guess it pays to be punctual. hor mendi? ah bo laa.. hui2 jia1 lor! Guys try this on Mendi! this way he can put his money to good use (buy him discipline and maybe a gf in the future) and not buy 2 pieces of wrapping paper that cost $17. Steadip!!!

amendi

Friends are forever... so is my love...

Hi all,

I have to say sorry for now… cos all the post that I am going to put up is just so emotional so sad…

The last few nights, I have thinking and talking to some of you as well. Half was supporting me, others were just telling me the “truth”. For me, I thank these few who encourage me and also people who just wanted to tell me the truth and its consequences.

However, I will like to tell u guys, I know the “truth”. The fact she (may) only treats me as a friend. The fact she don’t like me in the way I like her. The fact whatever that I had been saying is just bluffing myself, to just make myself feel hopeful again.

But I just want u guys to understand, the real truth is that I have never been so in love before, maybe only for “the one who appears in the paper”. And I thought I will never believe in love. As for those that really know me, ask yrself, have I love someone so much before? Have I love someone so long before?

And I also know, I have fallen so deep, that if I got rejected, I may never recover again.

But don’t worry too, cos I know I have friends like you to count on. And I also have time to heal myself. I have already prepared for the worst.

And also just a note, unless u have something positive to tell, don’t tell me anything. Just let me bluff myself as long as possible. Let me feel that there is still hope in the world of love.

So thank you FRIENDS, for the way you have been treating me.

And sorry FRIENDS, for all the complaining and nonsense that I have been telling you, Bear with it.

Lastly, 3 quotes that I cross my mind recently,

“But nothing is really impossible if you set your mind to believe and your heart to love...”

“Good things come to those who wait.”

“She can make herself to not like me,
She can tell herself to not like me,
She can actually don’t like me,
She can really just treat me as a friend,
But she cannot force me to not love her…”

Once again, thanks for reading…

Blackburn

There is hope in life...

Hi Guys,

At last, some time to write a post for the recent events.

As for the Y Camp that I came back from, it was a blast.

If Tioman gave me a new perspective in life, this Camp gave me new hope in life.

There is still hope in life.

It was a really rewarding experience I had.

When I reach home, every thoughts just rush through me. I never thought I would have survived this camp. If it was the “pervious” me, I would not have gone to this camp.

So I think for the December camp, I will be going as well.

Friends, I urged you to join the next YMCA Camp. It will be an experience you will never forget

As for me, I believe HER presence there made the whole camp more enjoyable.

As for what happened between us? R u interested to know?

Let’s say this hope has given me hope in LOVE as well.

I felt that she made some hints here and there at the camp, as if she had read the letter.

When I reach home, I started to miss her. It was really different this time round.

I really love her. No matter what, I will confess this love one day. And I will respect her decision.

I thought I have gotten over her. It was never really over.

Blackburn