It was a shock to have found out that some of us went for a Batam trip during the weekend. The shock was not from the fact that I wasn't invited but that I didn't even know that there was such a trip. Ignorant me even smsed, asking what the plan was for the new year, across the waters to Batam. This propelled me to do some soul searching and my mind raced through the memories of the past year to find that familiar faces have been largely absent, with frequencies of meetings dwindling.
I've grown distant to the group over the past months to the point that Kel would sometimes ask me why we haven't been meeting up with my friends. My answers were always that we haven't been invited. And now I sit here pondering as to why the case is such.
Indeed, wkends spent together with the clique have been scant ever since I've been with Kel but she has always been receptive to the idea of hanging out together with the clique so the cause couldn't be her (non-existent) reluctance. Yet, we have not been invited to any gatherings or hang out sessions except for major events such as the Christmas dinner. I treasure the friendship with the clique as everyone here numbers the longest friends I have and thus, please enlighten me as to why I/we have been excluded from the gatherings.
Happy New Year and have a good year ahead with well wishes
Kumar to find a suitable and sustainable job with good prospects.
Daniel to progress in career (in current or to hunt for a better) and relationship with partner and god.
Alvin to progress in career and relationship with god and get more opportunities of exciting experiences overseas.
Amanda for success in wedding and married life, to be a good wife and soon to be mother (or should we expect a few years of honeymoon?)
Ah Du and Mel to excel in studies and cherish the schooling days together
Psycho to excel in studies and subsequent career, make lots of money to loan me for housing cash upfront and cherish a good mate.
Terence to find a good deal for engagement ring and plow through all obstacles in career and love
Mendi to have a breakthrough in maturity, academics and love
Angheng to finish his studies and grow in love and come back to us
Benny to turn over a new leaf (Ji Hyun is waiting)
He Quan to become Yan Fei or casino supervisor
Did I miss out anyone?
5 comments:
To be frank, I only found out bout the batam trip on the day we met up for our Xmas gathering. If I hadn't overheard the conversation some of us were having, I wouldn't have known bout the batam trip. That was when I asked lulu to find out more. Only then lulu asked if I was interested in joining them to batam. There n then, the same thoughts u r having now came across my mind. I told myself maybe it was inconvenient for too many of us to join since miao's parents were going too.
Psycho
I don't mind not being invited as I know the constraints. It's just that suddenly not knowing about the whereabouts of my friends made me realise how distant I am to everyone. In fact, I do not know much about what everyone is doing and I'm guilty for that. I realise that it's becos I haven't been hanging out with all of u frequently and thus the inquiry.
Hm... Let me be frank. I am actually already used to this sudden "last minute" announcement. As most of you know, i am usually with Jezlin on the saturday. Unlike Keilin, Jezlin prefer it to be the 2 of us when we go out which i truly respect. But whenever I have time or when we have big events, I will try to join you guys. For me, what I try to do is to join you guys during the sunday soccer as much as possible. It may never be enough but I still hope we can still meet up as much as possible.
Blackburn
I guess I'm one of those guilty for having gone AWOL for a while. 2011 hasn't been the easiest year for me, which probably explains my disappearance. Firstly, doing a phd is really no joke at all. It is the hardest of times, yet at the same time the best of times. I'm truly pursuing my dreams, publishing papers, teaching, doing new research.
Now, add a long-distance relationship to the mix. My gf is currently studying in the US, that means I spend my nights on skype with her, and now that she's back, I need to give her all the time I've got for dates.
Lastly, this is something which may be new to all of you. I've been spending a lot of time on religion as well, specifically Catholicism. I go for weekly Novena's and Sunset Mass, which takes up my entire Saturday evening. I'm also starting on my RCIA (Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults) next month, aiming to be baptised by November this year. I've had to spend much time in deep prayer and reading Theology, because my faith is something I don't take lightly.
So here it is, this is what I've been up to for the past year. And things aren't going to get any easier, at least until this year is over. When my qualifiers are over, my gf comes home, and I truly join the family of God. I do miss spending time with all you guys, but I hope you understand that this is a really tough period for me. There's so much I need to grit my teeth and just tide through. But I'll try my best to make it for suppers or dinners sometimes. I know my record's been spotty, the last time I came for supper was almost a month back, but I'll try.
AH
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