Food for Thought

'Wise men speak because they have something to say. Fools speak because they have to say something.’ - Anonymous


Alonso

MUI NE BEACH RESORT!!

hello!!! after the border kangtao here i am again! safe and sound at this gorgeous beach resort, without my passport. yes yes i left my passport on the train!! lihai bo? ahea! the excitment never ends and my frens and i just cant seem to do things the easy way. and suay things keep happening to us! like twice already we stepped into 2 diff restaurants in laos and hanoi, there were blackouts. and when we innocently walk past a fire alarm at the train station, it malfunctioned and started ringing. and yesterday we went to this restaurant to have dinner and we had wanted to change US to Dong for the entire day. but the exchange rates here are all not too good so we decided to try our luck at that restaurant while paying up. the rate was real good, at US 1 to 15 900 Dong. BUT THE OWNER OF THE RESTAURANT JUST TOOK MOST OF THE MONEY AND LEFT. they did not have enuff Dong to exchange with us! wassssuuuuPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP mannn!! haha and theses are just a few incidents i can rem offhand. damn funnyyy i think its just us! and we have already been in touch with all the singapore embassy possible in the 2 countries. Vientiane in Laos for my fren's camera, Hanoi in Vietnam regarding the border crossing kangtao.. and now the Ho Chi Minh one cos of my passport. haha!! we really dunno wad to expect for each day and we just take it as it comes. my frens and i often wish at the start of the day that it will not be too happening or full of kangtaos if not we will all stay up late for our diary entries! haha but that said i think there arent many things tt can happen already la.. i hope! FINGERS CROSSED! looking forward to bribing the immigration office at HCM so that they will expedite my exit pass application for me to cross over to Phnom Penh to visit the kids. if not den kangtao liaooo.. haha ok taking orders for spiders and crickets and beetles. leave a comment if u wan hor i try my best. and please pray for my smooth return!

ahea!
amendi

Let us work towards creating a better world...

Hi Guys,

Today, I help my sister to go from Dhoby Ghaut to Boon Lay to buy a present for her BF. The whole journey cause 3 hrs.. its like 9.30pm when I reach home.

If you are wondering y will I do that, I have no idea. In fact before I did this before, I consider myself quite selfish. Or only doing things that will eventually benefit myself.

During the 3hr journey, I kept thinking. I was telling myself “Y am I doing this?”.

Then my thoughts went on to her and girlsssssssssssss(I must be truthful, there were a lot of girls that I liked) that I was interested before.

Then I focus my thoughts to just 4 girls. A gal that I like in my JC times, My last 2 ex girlfriends and Her.

Except for my latest ex, I did a lot of special stuff for these gals and it was definitely from the heart. As for my latest ex, it was not that I did not do anything for her, just that it was not as much as others. Thus, I always tell people she is the nicest gal I ever met. It is only when I lose her then I realize how important she is.

Anyway from all these thoughts (the short time span of every relationship; the gals I did things for did not fall for me, even for her), I realize I cannot love anyone or I don’t know how to love or there is just something wrong with me dealing in relationship or I just did not find the gal yet.

Whatever the case, since I cannot love anymore, I should just focus this energy elsewhere.

Let’s backtrack a bit: In “angel” case, I feel that fated is sealed. I am not going into details and I’ve decide to move on.

Lets get back: As I decide to move on and focus my energy elsewhere, I decide to focus this energy on my family and friends instead.

“If I am willingly to do these stuff and not get anything in return, y I cannot spend these time and energy on the people I loved and will appreciate instead and not elsewhere?”

So that is my new idea, to put this energy into good use instead.

Then as I kept thinking, I thought of my business plan, “The planning business” that I always has in mind. I realize the inspiration I have for these idea, came from the thought that I want to see people smile more often.

So I decided to concentrate and came up with a non-profit business idea.

“What I want to see as many happy faces in the world as possible, if I plan an outing for these people and they like it, they will smile. As the Chinese always say, if you help others, you will be happy too.”

So lets spread the love around.

Nt: Will elaborate more on this idea another time.

Disclaimer: just wanted to put a disclaimer this morning for the post i put last nite. Anyway, whatever i said here may or may not happen, but at least this is how i feel now.

Blackburn

WASSSSUUUPPP!!

hey guys!! got miss me norrttt? haha in Hanoi now. arrived yday from Laos, after some errr not so pleasant experiences at the border cos we nearly couldnt make it here man. apprarently singaporeans dun need a visa to travel to vietnam but we need to produce a ticket out of vietnam within 30 days cos they dun wan us to overstay kinda thing. my frens and i only had air tix to Laos and out from Cambodia, along the way we intended to travel by bus from Laos to Vietnam and Vietnam to Cambodia. sooooo bobiannnn we had to travel from the border all the way back on a 3 hr songtheaw ride back to the nearest village from the border and stay for another 2 days. thankfully there was DIALUP internet available and we managed to get air tix out from hanoi to bangkok (we're not even gonna use them!) for US 52!! diaooo righttt yes i knoww.. but after crossing the border to vietnam, we realised the immigrations officers dun really check the eticket that thoroughly so next time gonna just fake a ticket!! we were kinda in distress initially cos this delay meant we had less time for vietnam and cambodia but oh well, its part of the experience i guess. we just cant seem to get things done the easy way. we're always damn suay to kena this kinda things, my fren lose her camera on the 2nd day in Laos and we headed to S'pore embassy in Vientiane to make a report for insurance claim cos the police offices and tourist offices close at like 4pm and they just refer us from one place to anotherrr.. where to findddd.. we even spoke to the Singapore ambassador there la. made our presence felt in Spore embassy in Hanoi also cos of the border incident. so many other horror stories man! but of course along the way we met alot of gui ren also.. strangers who give us lifts, fellow backpackers from this super handsome guy called Eduador from Chile, Thomas from Austria, a super good looking couple from Germany, a fotojournalist from Britain and loads more! and we only arrived in Vietnam! so many more stories to tell u guys!! ok gtg now for breakfast.. can smell the fried maggots at the roadside liaoo.. cya after 5 june and take care man!

missing soccer sessions:(
amendi
Hanoi

Angel from Heaven...

Hi all…

I am Blackburn (aka Talen in Mr Teh post…)

Life not looking good now... I am just gonna write a short post…

Anyway to anyone who had read my previous post I just wanna clarify, the ending is not the actual ending. It’s just a prediction by me. Right now, I am still in contact with “her”.

Please do not rejoice yet… I must admit I have given her the present with the card and letter, but she had not look at the present yet.

You maybe thinking she might be bluffing me so as not to create awkwardness between us. But I believe her.

This actually led to another ideology I have been thinking.

She does not care about me or has any interest in me! (Hear the thunderstorm)

If anyone is interested in me or put me as a priority, she will at least take15 minutes just to open the present. It seems like she does not even bother.

Anyway really miss her… She came back to the office today but I do not really have the chance to talk to her.

This time round… I really think I have fallen for a girl.

Nt to all members: Be prepared to get jio for supper one day by me.

Blackburn

Can feelings be expressed by words???

For quite a while now I've been trying to leave comments but somehow, I can't seem to do so. I think there must be something really wrong with my comp hence, here's my long awaited entry. Referring to Teh's last entry, I'm one of those who likes to pen down my feelings, may it be in my diary or blog. Although I feel words are impotent to fully describe one's feelings, it's one outlet if you aren't the sort who likes to confide in someone. Having read terence's entries, I'm sure everyone feels for him and i'm no exception. If I've gotten attached recently, I could well be a member of the Zi Bi Club. Well... Who knows how long my relationship can last??? You guys should be no stranger to who my gf is by now. I know deep down inside that some of you detest it, some just prefer to sit on the fence and some subtlely giving me support. Whatever it is, I've no hard feelings against any of you coz I know what positions you peeps have in my heart. Without you guys, there won't be me. I may not express my gratitude but this is honestly how I feel. What I'm doing now is something really out of the norm and it's no wonder many of you can't accept. Come on guys, this isn't the first day you know me. I always have the knack of doing crazy shit even if it means the consequences may be grave. I've always been rather liberal and deviant but Jon (ALvin's classmate) has broaden my perspective even wider. It's kinda ironic if you think bout it. I was the one who's supposed to be counselling him. He said my family is kinda dysfunctional so from young, I didn't really get to appreciate the bliss of a happy family that's why I always dive in like a headless chicken when I love someone. Hell!!! For the 23 years of my life, I've never thought of it this way. He does make some sense, mind you. Fancy a 16 year old teaching a 23 how to view things from another angle. What a disgrace!!! Whatever it is, I've to reiterate my stand. This applies to all. If you like someone or something and you see a glimmer of hope, just fricking go for it. Seriously, you never know when the grim reaper will come knocking on your door so dun take any chances. It's true that sometimes you may come across as being immoral but who's to judge you. As long as you dun resort to unscrupulous means, no one can pass a verdict like dat on you. You're merely working hard for what you desire. Having said so, if there really is no hope at all, there's no point wasting time and effort. It's definitely hard to move on but we just gotta try, if you know what I'm saying. So dudes, I dun need your support. All I'm asking for is your understanding. You guys dun calll me "Psycho" for no reason rite...

I know

Reading Talen's post made me reminsce about the time I got dumped. Like Talen, I wrote, wrote and wrote, everything that I wanted to say. Everyone goes through that period. Just to share your sorrows, this is what I wrote. It's a bit long, boring and in chinese so pardon me. Please click on the image if you wish to read it. If not, please feel free to ignore this rubbish.






















Mr Teh

Angel & I 3

Hi all,

Movies always comes in a trilogy, so is my story.

“… At lunch time one day, he and she went shopping for some clothing. She found a top that she like but has none of her size.

He decided to help her find this top. He went to bugis then to orchard. At last after a few places, he found one which has her size.

He wants to give her this top as a parting gift for her.

On the second last day, she felt uneasy as she felt most of his attention was on her. Finally, she opened her mouth, ‘erm… thanks for the help… I know you have been really helpful towards me when I am working her, but it’s sometimes too much and I cannot concentrate.’ This is definitely a big blow towards him. To her, he was just being helpful. But for him, he was never really this helpful to anyone, he really like her.

Still after that blow, he still decides to give her the gift at the last day. With it, were a card and a letter. The letter actually states most of his feelings. He hope after she read through the letter, she will actually understand his feelings.

….

That night, he dreamt of an angel falling from the sky…

…..

After that last day, she still did not get back to him.

….

The End…”

Sorry if my story does not really flow and I never really explain y she was an angel, I’m sorry.…. And this story is not entirely fictional.

Love will never be easy, and if you give, you may not get back as well.

Blackburn

Angel & I 2

Hi all,

Know what… Firstly, I have to apologize to some of you for my attitude recently when we go out. I know I have been very “sian” when we are out. I guess it’s just been hard. There are so many things that I have been frustrated about. It’s just that “We” will not be working together anymore within 7 days. And I just become very confused of what I should and should not do. I cannot imagine what will happen after that.

I guess this time I have really put in quite a lot. Putting my heart into making her happy and hoping that she understands.

Moreover there is something that she said which has been bothering me. She said to her, “Relationship is on chemistry and feeling.” To me, at the rate she is replying my smses, I suppose it will be chemistry no more after the 7th day from now.

So I have been thinking… What should I do then? Express myself? Ask her the ultimate question? See how she feels?

However, the irony is also that I understand “fools rush in”. I believe these things are stuff that we should not be rushing in. Furthermore, I think she still do not really know me. I do not want problems arising in the future.

My thoughts are just like the comments coming in… some say “give the Big Hint”… some say “pls just give up”… others just say “pls wait”… So I am just confused.

Eventually, I just wanna say sorry if I did not portray the right attitude to you guys recently. I just hope things work out.

……..

Angel & I 2

“….He began to become confused about what he should do with these feelings he had for her.

Express himself? Ask her to be his gf? Ask her how she feels about him?

Things just got more complicated.

He tried to give some hints. When she said, ‘I feel like eating sweets’, he rush to buy sweets for her. When she has a sore throat, he rushes to buy lozenges for her. When she asks him for help, he did not give the slightest of hesitation.

As for her, she was an angel, not an idiot. She got the hint. But she was just too busy to get into any relationship. Moreover, she is someone who does not go after guys. She just does not have to do that.

As time went by, it got to the last week of her working week. He started to panic about what will happen if she is gone. After all she is the one who made him believe in love again.

He began to ask around for help.

To be continued…”

Blackburn

Angel & I...

Hi all,

I am going to tell ya a story…

Angel and I…

“One day, an angel fell from the sky into the human world. Whatever happens before this is up to one’s imagination. But whatever happened later should explain this mysterious event.

She was then born into a family of 4. Being the youngest in the family, she was being very well protected and taken care of. She grew up into a beautiful, sporty, friendly and nice 18 year old girl.

In the meantime, another guy was also born into the world. He was also the youngest and pampered in the family. He grew up to become what most of his friends will call him, a mummy’s boy… it is a 21 years old mummy’s boy.

These two people’s walks very different paths.

Since she is pretty and sporty, guys went for her like bee to a flower. Being the flower, she has an opportunity to choose. Thus regarding the subject of love, there was not much issue for her. As she was also an angel, she is very nice to everyone and so everyone likes her.

For him, being the mummy’s boy, he does not seem to appeal to most girls. Thinking like getting home early, having no money most of the time and no car made things worst. However, life was still good to him. With regards to education, he is accepted into university. He also had girlfriends, but things always did not work out, he when he put in 200%. Finally, he began to lose confidence in himself and also love.

On a particular day in April, these two people’s path crosses. He had an internship in a company where she happened to work in. They clicked immediately.

On day 1, they chatted.
On day 2, they went out as friends.
On day 3-4, they chatted more.
On the fifth day, they went on another date. This was the turning point of the story.

Initially as the guy was not confident with love, he did not want to get involved in anymore relationship. Moreover, he thought she was so nice; he will not be able to measure up to her. The most pathetic thing was that he cannot swim but she likes water sports.

But on their second date, things started to change. As they say “fools rush in”, he started to develop real feelings for her.

The first thing that went through his mind was that “She is a girl that I will definitely treat like a princess, at least I will try.”

Next the feeling of obsession sets in. He was thinking her day and night. But the stupid thing was after the 2nd date, it was the first time that he was separated from her for a long time (Long time = more than 24hrs). He started to make stupid moves like sms and calls. She did not reply nor return calls. As he was always thinking of her, it was a very tough period. But still he got through.

After this obsession phase, he realize things were not in his control and he should just take it easy and let nature take its course. Chatting, eating, working with each other was enough to make him satisfied. The only thing he wanted was a smile from her.

On the other hand, she was too busy with her own stuff to notice his feelings. She seems to treat him just as a friend. Moreover, she treats everyone so nice, and he may have taken the wrong signal.

As time went by, he started to know more about her and began to like her even more. However, he still has to hide his feelings as he doesn’t want to lose a friend.

Love was never an easy issue for him and her.

……… to be continued.”

I know this story is not fantastic and seem stupid. I also guess everyone can guess the ending, “and they live happily ever after”. This is what I hope so.

Anyway I dedicated this story to everyone who wants and hopes to be in love… and also to her. Hopefully everyone can find his/her angel.

Miss her already.

Nt: Did I tell you guys that she actually could get hold of out blog URL somewhere …. Thus she could be reading this as you are reading this.

Blackburn

JERSEYS Part 2.

helloooo! updates updates! for those of u who have posted your preferred names n numbers to be printed, thanks.. you dun have to post again. For those who have not, pls comment in this post by sunday 13 May, 10am. else order will not be taken.


Design 1 NIKE (personal fav!)
Colours available: red with white (as seen), red with black, white with black (my personal fav! very niceee!! vote for this! matches smartly with black shorts also:) and white with blue.
Price: $30 incl printing of numbers and names
Description: dri-fit. the white part has tiny holes kind.

Design 2 ADIDAS
Colours available: din ask heehee
Price: $28 incl printing of numbers and names
Description: adidas equivalent of 'dri-fit', cool something forgot. ahea..

Design 3 DIADORA
Colours available: only green with white lines and yellow with black lines cos old design liao.
Price: $25 incl printing of numbers and names
Description: just 2 lines down the sides. has holes all ard kind. material is lighter than first 2 designs.

ok so Sunday after soccer we go down have a look and order? den can celebrate mother's day together also. aheeaaa.. dun tu so long la mafaaannnnn. chop chop settle it!! den colour we vote on sunday la. if you're not coming just let me know your vote.. thankss!!!

away with stinky jerseysss.. FINALLY!

amendi

Alegna... the angel that falls from the sky...

Hi all,

Today some big shit happened… Some flowers reached my office… It is hers… Apparently the flowers were not from me…

This is definitely some shock… This means someone is also interested in her…

But as time goes by, I realize she kept replying smses… it seems to be from that guy… the fact that she kept replying the sms and typing long messages seems to be something going on…

I felt like I have lost… In office, I even still have to work with her and talk to her… even have to fake smile… and the fact is I am just sad…

Whatever it is… I’ve talk to people, even people in my office… and my decision is that I am not going to do anything… I’ll let nature take its course… after all, its just another week…

On my way home, I realize all I want is to see her smile… No matter whatever happens in the future.

Blackburn

A quick update

Hey guys, it has been a long time since my last post. Just a quick update to all of u. I will be meeting mendi, togther wif his 2 kiphuips yiting and samantha later for dinner cum ktv session. From the sms that we had exchanged, it seems that yiting is eager to meet mendi, though i feel that samantha suits him better. I will try to take a photo of him and yiting and post it here. Anyway wish him all the best =)

Lulu

Nice Guys End Up Last...

Hi all,

What has happened to the freaking world...? I am not just talking about girls… but humans generally. As my title says it all, nice guys always end up last.

Let’s just start with my family, excluding my father, mother, sisters and my grandparents. I think the rest of them are freaking ******. I shall not go into details. It’s not nice to say bad things about our family. The worst case scenario is that I may not have a house to live in when I reach home one day. Bad things happen when people live together. These things tend to happen only to nice people.

Whatever it is, whenever you thought all is over, it starts again… For this, I am saying about the other side of human beings. The Bad one…

There is just so much anger and sadness in me right now. So if you do not understand what I am talking about, pardon me.

The other thing is what I have been confused about. How can someone treat you so nice one moment and so cold the next?

For me, Sms is an important factor in life. A Sms means a thought. It can be something nice or bad. It does not matter, cos at least the person thought of you.

Recently, I have been messaging “her” and she did not reply. But whenever she messages me, I replied her straight away. Afterwards, when I message, she will not reply me. I can take it that she is busy and cannot reply me. But why does it happen so frequently?

There is a reason y I become so emotional when she did not reply me, cos I have fell for her. I’m falling into this black hole where I don’t know what’s happening next. I don’t even know if she is interested in me. Maybe she just treats me as a friend, a very good friend.

Whenever we are in the office, we chit chat like there is no tomorrow. I really feel the chemistry is there. But after work or during weekends, I will have the cold shoulder from her. It likes whatever happened during office hours is a dream, not a reality. That is why I think maybe she only treat me as a friend.

Another reason I become so emotional is because of a few factors. Firstly, I think she is a really nice girl. She may not be the prettiest, but she is really nice. I never thought I will meet someone this nice after Rachel. Secondly, despite working in the Christian organization, I met her, someone not of the Christian religion. I must say I do not have anything against Christians, just that I had bad experience before with people of this religion. Thirdly, it is the chemistry. It is something I never feel for a long time. Fourthly, it’s the reciprocation I felt from her. Even when I am not sure whether she likes me, she seems to be giving back at times. Lastly, it is her smile. I really like it when she smiles. Even if it’s at me, it does not matter. I just hope she is happy.

Anyway, I will only be seeing her for another week or so. Thus, I am worried. I may never know if she liked me. In fact, I actually have plans up my sleeve but friends have talked me out of it. They told me not to dig my own grave.

But really, I do not need her to be my GF… I just want to know how she feels about me. Are we just suitable as friends or is progress possible? I know she is the type that will take some time. However, is this really that hard?

I am also worried. I may just be freeze by her coldness after she leaves her position in the organization on 19 May. Then, I may never know the truth nor have the opportunity to meet her again.

My friends have told me to take it easy and ask her to stay in contact. I guess that’s all I can do now. After all, I also hope to not lose her as a friend.

For all those stupid stuff that I have done for her, hopefully she’ll appreciate one day.

Nice guys will always end up last… This is the only truth out there…

Again… Pardon me for my structuring, my vocabulary, my language and my writing. I am just feeling so lousy right now and need a place to pour my sorrows.

Blackburn